Geron

3 Wks!!!
In Geron Posting, I met the sister that I hate. OMG!!!
My posting is like stress to me as I dun know whether my case study can pass or not.
As the sister's standard is so high until I scared of the devil sister s.
I dun want to talk abt the ward sister s. As I dun want to talk abt it as she is a true devil in the ward.

I really scared liao. Ai....dun feel like talking so much or else I will have nightmare le. So that's it.

OT Posting

Today is the last day of OT posting.
We got chocolates and card for the staff to appreciate their guidance and care.

The overall posting is nice. Nice is b'cos I scared of being a scrub nurse. Hahahahaha
So I scrub for 1 case only and I felt very nervous for the case. I felt like I was "garlang garbok" (means under not mentally prepare, make a mess of the thing).
But lucky got sister to help me or else I die le.
I saw different cases except din get to see ortho and neuro. As chances of getting infection (Patient) for the cases is high so they normally dun allow students to go in (many ppl-high chance of getting infection, fewer ppl-less chance of getting infection).
So too bad. NVM.

I felt like I'm the maybe most useless YR 3 student in the bunch, maybe b'cos I see they all so capable, which makes me like a tiny sand in the whole beach. Hahhahaahhahahhahhahha. Dun worry, I won't be jealous and make a trap to let them fall in. I just like envious abt their capability. Hahahahahahahaha..........

Of course des is the most capable among the bunch of students. Know what?! They all know abt WL and Des de "relationship". Most of us are from different groups. But they din know Des and WL relationship is a past. I know but din tell them as I think if des want to talk abt it he will tell them when they ask.

So the next posting is geron posting. I felt like OMG is the ward that I dislike so much (Not the staff but the NM). I feel scared and like want to die by just thinking of it as a student at there. *SOBS*

I feel like shouting out loud "PLS DUN LET ANYTHING BAD HAPPEN AT THERE", and also feel like shouting this too " SHIT MAN WHY THIS WARD, I DISLIKE THE NM LEI". The reason Why I dun like the NM at there is there is a bad experience within me and NM. "VERY BAD EXPERIENCE". Dun feel like talking abt the past. Damn shit!!! Forget it, just let it be hahahahahahaha.........

A&E

Today is my attachment.
Well I make a funny impression of me to SN.
So "swai" lor. I can't imagine this is the bad day for me.
I'm quite blur for the things that will be at.
So when told to take some thing, I will like think and search for the thing, thus cause embarrasement too.
Well can't help it, as I have a poorer memory then anyone else.
So i think i'm the black sheep in the dept.
Hahahaha

After attachment, I nearly fall down when I'm going to drop off at the bus stop. Luckily din or else more embarrassment.
Ai.....what an unlucky day for me. Hmgh, maybe should go and pray pray.(no time to go so dun feel like going)

*WL & D din break up*

D say he can't go out wif her is b'cos no $$.
So din break la .

Attachment

Well tomorrow is my attachment.
Feelings? Of course is scared, afraid, uncertainty, blank mind, blur, nervous, sad etc.
Actually dun feel like to go to attachment, but have no choice over it.
I don't know why, why I have such scary feelings that overwhelmed me.
It makes me become SOB, can't breathe so well.
It feels like there is a stone that had deeply dumped on my heart to make it so heavy that it can't pump properly.
I dun know what will things happen tomorrow, but I hope everything is fine, and also wishes for all my friends to their career life or love life or study life or everything, will went smoothly.
Of course I know that might not be always but still want to wish them.
The sky also became so angry, already raining. They're angry b'cos the lightning is so powerful and scary. The sound is like there is an unpredictable things that going to happen. Which makes my worries grow scarrier and scarrier. I hate this kind of feeling, which makes me want to cry.
Maybe I think too much, but I tried not to think of it. But I felt like the time is coming which makes me like hard to breathe, undescrible fear, scared of anything that will come to me happens to be bad. I feel like scolding vulgar words lei.
Forget it maybe I really need to relax and save some $$ and buying things. Saving $$ is b'cos b4 21 I need to save more than $500. Or else the bank might be ending up deduct $$ from my account man. That is so *Shit*.
Omg the sound of the thunder is so loud until it frightens the soul out of me man!!!
Hope it doesn't sound so loud and gd luck to everybody!!!