Days Grew Near

As days passed by very fast, I'm scared.
I think u must know the reason, and yes the reason is PRCP is coming soon.
Shit I'm thinking to prepare for the worst as I dun think I can pass and work as staff nurse, but maybe GP nurse is possible.
So hope can pass through only one attempt man. But scared sia.
Really scared of PRCP as this is my graduation posting lei. So scary. Heard that that will be tough going for us. *SHIT*
I feel like as the days passed, I feel like having difficulty in breathing gradually. One of the factors are scared, the other are I'm not going to pass.
Those who knows me, knew that I'm so timid in making decision, always forget certain things, med not welly memorized, so blur like sotong, can't flexible, no confident in doing things, will not proactive etc.
There is a lot of neg. thing to talk abt my character. So dun talk too much abt me.
Ai......................................*sad*.......................................*sob*................................................................
I really thinking a lot of times of quiting but I still must consider a lot of factor, all these makes me so headache. And also makes me feel like I'm trapped in a maze.
I really feel so "fan". However, I wish I rather be s GP nurse than hospital nurse. As I know myself, I'm not a gd nurse for a hospital to get, but ok for a GP to get. I really can't handle stress really well, so maybe if possible, hope can work in GP or other kinds of job, rather than a staff nurse in hospital.
I found out that I nd to attend the recuitment thingy to have easy access for my PRCP. But a lot of qus cross my mind. If after poly would they ask me to work in that hospital? Or is there any terms and condition? etc . And also plus the factor that I already lost interest in Nursing. Which makes me feel so uninterested, no mood, and no confident in Nursing.
Ai........................................................................................................................................................
Anyway I just voice out my "lao shao" only. Just dun keep it to heart. Enjoy ur public holiday.